Learning to Dance in the Rain

Abstract This chapter explores several interlocking concepts core to my experience pursuing tenure and promotion to full professor as a Black woman of mixed-race heritage. Drawing on theories of epistemic injustice and critical feminist scholars, including bell hooks, Cherríe Moraga, and Gloria Anzaldúa, I articulate processes of mobilizing critical placemaking to counteract white supremacy culture, including toxic white femininity. The chapter first identifies dimensions of white supremacy culture within academia and then names targets of change necessary for valuing Black women. Highlighted as lessons, I focus on three mechanisms key to my praxis of surthrival: (1) detriangulating from dysfunctional patterns of toxic belonging, (2) navigating epistemic injustice and epistemicide within white supremacy culture, and (3) critical placemaking through cultivating healthy work habits, boundaries, and relationships. I hope this chapter is instructive in supporting these and other forms of critical praxis that honor us, and our knowledge work.